Writings
Writing is one way I discover what I think and feel. I sit down not knowing and let the sentences reveal what's been moving underneath, the thing I couldn't quite name until it was on the page. It's less a record of what I've already integrated than the integration itself.
What Moves In The Dark
For two springs, my dog Juniper has traded a bone back and forth with a coyote neither of us has ever seen up close. It's a small, wordless negotiation between a domesticated wolf and a wild one. But it's also where I found language for something harder to hold: the grief of a baby I haven't had, and the strange truth that no self, no longing, and no loss exists independently of everything else.